November: Plans, Wish, & Hopes

Biang keringat = Miliaria

Better remember that before I lost my way the next time I'm explaining to foreigners about what's wrong with my neck and joints.

October has passed and now we're welcoming November. I'm actually a little bit sad knowing that October has always been regarded as special for myself yet anything special happened or given to me, nyahaha. Guess I really am living the flat live now.. Or am I not?

This November I'm planning to be back at golf again aiming to score below 100, and of course a trophy before December.

I'll spend less time in yugioh for now, taking a break from the competitive scene yet I'll find more time to visit OSD during sundays.

I also would like to spend a day commuting with trains again. I've been imagining myself riding one to go to some places like UI, depok margonda, and bogor; just to have that tasty Soto Mie at the station.. then going back during the night, which I kinda missed how I used to have the last train from Duren Kalibata Station. I'll transit in the Manggarai and grab some snacks around, the KFC quickie will do the trick.

I will spend more for fashion this month, as my jeans have been ripping apart. I also consider about having new shoes and flip flops. I would like to purchase a new watch if I have some money left. My wrist missed its moments wearing the watch.

I really need to buy motorcycle raincoat and maybe a new jacket would do as well. Also my bike has been really dirty, so I need too clean it up. I should bring it to the mechanic to have it maintained as well, since it's been 4 months since I took it last time.

I miss playing guitar, so I would think about spending money on brand new strings. I also want to start learning some harmonica tunes too. I miss playing music, although i know that I will never be good at it.

I will be submitting my proposal for thesis soon, wish me luck. I wish someone would accompany me and help me for my next chapters writing.

I wish to have someone--a friend--that cares about me. Don't get me wrong, people around me are all have been really nice to me. But I've been seeking someone I can lean on to for a while, yet I can't ask people around me knowing they have no times for that. I think soon I really need one.
You never know how much have I been holding back things, do you?

I'm not looking into relationship for now, and I think for some time around. I feel cheated, and that gets me dejected about its purpose. I also don't want to give hopes to others. If you can't keep up with how you feel about me, I will be going. Coz I don't want to hurt anyone.

If you got hurt because of me, then please stay away, or else; I'll be going first.
Because actually, the one who hurts most is not you, it's me. Being the kind that unable to see other gets hurt, sucks.

I hope I could be more generous. Sharing things and helping people around me is the greatest feeling I can get.

And finally, I wish..
to meet my Kaori soon; and make her waits for that time