Be Yourself (?)

Yes, I'm writing my blog in the middle of night again!

And it keeps annoying me because of it, why is it everytime when i'm going to sleep, my brain productively producing words to be written here!?

Okay.. we meet again my dear few blog readers, Today 1:43 AM 25/04 a bout couple of hours left before my first mid semester exam starts, and of course while dortmund and real madrid clashes in Champions League which idk why i'm not that interested to watch.

I think i won't write another long paragraphs here, just to bring you this simple kind of topic that came from.. ahem 'someone'

It's about being myself, which i don't really understand what's it all about.

I always get this kind of statement, whether it comes from movies, dramas, or animes.. ya mostly animes.. and even songs too... And of course in our dramatically daily life.

I remembered, a colleague of mine from the class told me that people look me as a 11-12 person which means.. sometimes i'm cheerful, the next minute i'll be silent, and a couple of seconds later i'll be an angry man. Maybe i have to agree in her terms because i feel that way. I'm way too moody to be a person. And honestly, i don't really understand what such a real character am I. What i can describe is, whenever i'm being around my close friends, i'll be loudest, being in people, i'll be the most silent.. Being with people i know i'll be cheerful, being alone makes me serious. And being with a girl i like? well that's questionable.

I can't decide really for who or what i really am. Because i think this is what provides me from the inside. I'm not that sociable so I have to adapt to the environment as much as I can.

And actually, i don't wanna admit it, but it feels like there are different personality here inside me. So sometimes you might see or talk to different 'Nicko'

And this what makes me wonder, what if I'm just a false 'Nicko'? What if i'm not really supposed to be here?

What should i do, and how should i act correctly? How can I be myself?
What about you guys? :)