Welcome back,
And hey what's up ^^
Yeah I know some of you might find this a little weird, "what's going on with Nicko? "Why is there such a smiley face up there?"
Yep, I'm currently in a mood between my extreme happiness and the downfall of life.
So here's the deal, I went with someone special a few days ago! WOOOOO XD
Ya! I'm being serious here! I know i mentioned myself as a loner who always going everywhere just by myself. But it was different.
So let me tell you about it.
It was Sunday around 10 AM when i just barely tried to open my eyes slowly, knowing that there had been 2 guys sitting beside me, which i find.. of course.. a lil bit traumatic.. It's like, OMG what have i done? did they do something to me? Am i still a vi..??? ok just a joke, but seriously it's a kind of horror ._.
Moving up~
So it was sunday morning, the day when we promised to go to our soon-to-be basecamp or practically informized as our "office". And yeah, we decided that we'll be going rendezvous at my room at 10.. but...
Bule, whom stayed a night before with me, was taking me up to late for games of dota the night before. So I was like, you know, the person who's collecting his soul that's been scattered around, trying to make it into a component and putting it inside, making it as the source of the energy to move your strings of muscles so that you can pull yourself under the heavy gravitation of the bed which has been the best friend of you for the last couple of hours.
And sunday won't be complete without morning cartoon TV, but disappointly i couldn't catch the doraemon show which i have been missing for years.
And after that, off we go to our building located in Mampang Area, you know the one with the intersection around mampang's seven eleven :3
There's nothing much to be told of there, except how i was really.. really surprised by the size of the house, and how fun it'd be to be on the top of the balcony... i finally found the right place to see stars from the binoculars, woooo... let's start saving money then~
I didn't do much there since i'm not in that kind of mood because of my lack of sleep time. I tend to see my friends cleaning, with just once or twice helping them in lifting things and sweeping floor. Oh yeah, when we go there, i was still on my bed clothes, not to mention that i haven't took a bath yet.
Haha, yeah sometimes i'm lazy to dress appropriately.
I decided to fill my empty stomach alone back at the sevel, when I find my phone ringing of a BBM.
Oh it's her!
So she was asking me about things related to storage need and asking me the place where to buy it. I was happily offering myself that i could lend her my time to accompany her shopping. We decided that the time will be at 2 PM.. 2 PM? It's 12.30 PM already and i'm still at mampang, wearing my horrible bed clothes with my yawny face! FYI, the distance from Mampang to my broadhouse takes about 20 minutes by public bus, excluding the calculation of traffic of course, and 20 minutes walk from the bus stop to my place.
As i calculate time, -my most precious thing in life carefully.. I came to a conclusion that i should go home as soon as i can (of course, this is so lame -_-)
As I reach back at my place, i begin to worry things.. About how i should act.. what should i say? what must I do? what if She finds me boring? And yeah, things off like that.
I was in a hurry that my phone showed me the time for 1:30 PM. Going bath in rush and back again to pasar festival. To be quick, I met her driving her car as she recognizes me by a far.. Ya, it seems I have improved her awareness of my being, just like i said :p
We went to ITC accompanied by jakarta's trademark of high traffic jam.. yeah traffic jam.. the thing that makes me nuts as i feel that i'm wasting my time on the road, doing nothing, rotting, not being productive.
But it was kind of different back then. I see her not in her best condition as she caught cold and flu, and it slowly affects me at my lowest endurance of disease since I wasn't having a healthy rest time. But yeah, along the road I think I had fun back there :)
Honestly, all i could tell is how much i scold her about being too active and for not caring her condition. She really is! hey you read this? Please consider your health, don't push yourself too much! Or I might catch and rob you, lol joke.
And it was the time when I could admire her in such a close range, divided by just a handbrake and straps of seatbelts, as It stings my heart more and more that I feel like I might lose this moment soon.
It was really crowded that the landpark has gotten filled everywhere around underground. I try to calm her, which i couldn't see much of effect by that, lol..
There's something hilarious happened here, but i promised her that'll be the secret of us, soo no complaining~
To be continued..
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Tuesday, April 30, 2013
Thursday, April 25, 2013
Be Yourself (?)
Yes, I'm writing my blog in the middle of night again!
And it keeps annoying me because of it, why is it everytime when i'm going to sleep, my brain productively producing words to be written here!?
Okay.. we meet again my dear few blog readers, Today 1:43 AM 25/04 a bout couple of hours left before my first mid semester exam starts, and of course while dortmund and real madrid clashes in Champions League which idk why i'm not that interested to watch.
I think i won't write another long paragraphs here, just to bring you this simple kind of topic that came from.. ahem 'someone'
It's about being myself, which i don't really understand what's it all about.
I always get this kind of statement, whether it comes from movies, dramas, or animes.. ya mostly animes.. and even songs too... And of course in our dramatically daily life.
I remembered, a colleague of mine from the class told me that people look me as a 11-12 person which means.. sometimes i'm cheerful, the next minute i'll be silent, and a couple of seconds later i'll be an angry man. Maybe i have to agree in her terms because i feel that way. I'm way too moody to be a person. And honestly, i don't really understand what such a real character am I. What i can describe is, whenever i'm being around my close friends, i'll be loudest, being in people, i'll be the most silent.. Being with people i know i'll be cheerful, being alone makes me serious. And being with a girl i like? well that's questionable.
I can't decide really for who or what i really am. Because i think this is what provides me from the inside. I'm not that sociable so I have to adapt to the environment as much as I can.
And actually, i don't wanna admit it, but it feels like there are different personality here inside me. So sometimes you might see or talk to different 'Nicko'
And this what makes me wonder, what if I'm just a false 'Nicko'? What if i'm not really supposed to be here?
What should i do, and how should i act correctly? How can I be myself?
What about you guys? :)
And it keeps annoying me because of it, why is it everytime when i'm going to sleep, my brain productively producing words to be written here!?
Okay.. we meet again my dear few blog readers, Today 1:43 AM 25/04 a bout couple of hours left before my first mid semester exam starts, and of course while dortmund and real madrid clashes in Champions League which idk why i'm not that interested to watch.
I think i won't write another long paragraphs here, just to bring you this simple kind of topic that came from.. ahem 'someone'
It's about being myself, which i don't really understand what's it all about.
I always get this kind of statement, whether it comes from movies, dramas, or animes.. ya mostly animes.. and even songs too... And of course in our dramatically daily life.
I remembered, a colleague of mine from the class told me that people look me as a 11-12 person which means.. sometimes i'm cheerful, the next minute i'll be silent, and a couple of seconds later i'll be an angry man. Maybe i have to agree in her terms because i feel that way. I'm way too moody to be a person. And honestly, i don't really understand what such a real character am I. What i can describe is, whenever i'm being around my close friends, i'll be loudest, being in people, i'll be the most silent.. Being with people i know i'll be cheerful, being alone makes me serious. And being with a girl i like? well that's questionable.
I can't decide really for who or what i really am. Because i think this is what provides me from the inside. I'm not that sociable so I have to adapt to the environment as much as I can.
And actually, i don't wanna admit it, but it feels like there are different personality here inside me. So sometimes you might see or talk to different 'Nicko'
And this what makes me wonder, what if I'm just a false 'Nicko'? What if i'm not really supposed to be here?
What should i do, and how should i act correctly? How can I be myself?
What about you guys? :)
Friday, April 19, 2013
The Poem of Time : Grow
When I was a young boy I was told I could become anything that I wanted to be
Followed all the paths they laid before me now I’ve learned
Never lead where I thought they would lead
You may hold me down but you can’t break me
You may think you can but you can’t shake me
You may trust your god but he won’t save me
Don’t think you can take anything from me
Now that I am grown, Do I like what I’ve become?
Is it all that I thought it would be…?
Back where it began and anything has come and gone
I will be what I wanted to be
You may hold me down but you can’t break me
You may think you can but you can’t shake me
You may trust your god but he won’t save me
Don’t think you can take anything from me
Ashtar Command - Mark IV
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
Berbisnis dengan Allah
Hello Guys!
So ada apa dengan judul kali ini?
Hahaha, kali ini gw pengen share ke kalian-kalian semua tentang keajaiban2 "berbisnis" dengan sang Maha Pengasih.
Alkisah dahulu kala di sebuah kerajaan istana *plak*
oke serius~
Jadi dulu pas gw masih gabut di batam, gw itu paling seneng yang namanya jalan-jalan ke toko buku. Iya gw tau klo gw jalan kemana2 pasti sendiri, maaf bgt yah klo saya ga pernah bawa 'pacar' atau siapa jalan2, paling klo ga rahman, daus, atau chester.. hehe
Nah, pernah pas minggu-minggu best seller, ada terpampang bukunya karya Ippho Santosa
"Oke jadi maksudnya apa dong?"
Gini, gw emang tertarik ngeliat buku itu rata2 dari kovernya. Karena logika aja deh, klo isi bukunya bisa dibuat sebagus mungkin, masa si penulis gabisa sama sekali bikin sampul atau tampilan kover yang bagus? Bener ga? Menurut gw tampilan cover yg menarik itu perlu, karena itu juga menunjukkan keseriusan kesempurnaan buku itu sendiri bukan? XD
oke lanjut~
Jadi ya gw pengen banget nyoba baca itu buku, dan gw ga ada pilihan lain selain ngebeli buku itu sendiri. Karena di gramed tempat gw buku itu rapih di plastikin semua. Dan gw bukan tipe orang yg berani diem2 buka sampul plastik buku ==''
Namun apalah daya kantong pelajar SMA yang hari-hari niatnya nyimpen duit untuk main game online, gw ngerasa yah... agak males ngeluarin duit buat beli buku -_- Lagian duit gw juga ga cukup sih buat beli.
Alhasil yah gw nyoba untuk ngebujuk ortu buat beliin.
Ortu memang agak pelit sih sama gw, tapi maksud tujuannya baik kok. Gw ga mau dimanja jadi anak yg keinginannya selalu terpenuhi, hehehe... Tapi as far as i concerned, ortu gw itu klo udah yg namanya buat pelajaran, rela ngelakuin apa aja. Mulai dari minta pinjeman kesana sini buat uang buku gw, sampe biaya sekolah. Yah.. emang klo diinget2 sedih juga sih, tapi itulah ortu gw.. Yang pengen anaknya sukses dan melebihi apa yg telah mereka capai :')
Nah, akhirnya ortu gw mau2 aja sih gw ajak ke gramed. Janjinya Minggu malem sekalian jalan2 keluar. Tapi sebenernya ortu juga masih agak ragu gitu.. dan sesampainya di Gramed, eh bener aja.. yang ada ortu gw malah bilang macem2
"ini buku apaan nik? kamu tau isi bukunya? jangan ah ntar ajarannya aneh2, macem2 aja"
Ya begitu sih, diliat dari kover n judulnya.. ==a
Ortu memang bukan kutu buku yang ngerti soal perpustakaan dan toko buku.
Tapi ya gw ga mau kalah dong, ga mungkin ini buku bisa nangkring di pojok best seller tanpa sebab. Jadi pada akhirnya gw menang argumen, dan berhasil membawa pulang buku itu.
And I was right, it was a great book!
Selesai gw baca, gw langsung kasih buku itu ke ortu gw.. dan apa reaksi mereka?
Papah gw langsung beli judul lainnya Ippho Santosa yang 7 Keajaiban Rezeki
memang rezeki itu ga disangka2 kawan. Jangan sekalipun kita nganggep dengan mengeluarkan uang di jalan Allah itu mengurangi harta kita. Dan gw punya banyak sekali pengalaman tentang hal ini, asli bukti 100% Karena begitu uang yang kita berikan untuk sedekah/infak itu kita keluarkan, Saat itu juga Allah membalasnya, mengalirkan keajaiban zat Maha Kuasanya, memulai suatu kemistri dan proses yang Manusia tidak pernah terfikirkan dan duga sebelumnya.
Subhanallah~
So ada apa dengan judul kali ini?
Hahaha, kali ini gw pengen share ke kalian-kalian semua tentang keajaiban2 "berbisnis" dengan sang Maha Pengasih.
Alkisah dahulu kala di sebuah kerajaan istana *plak*
oke serius~
Jadi dulu pas gw masih gabut di batam, gw itu paling seneng yang namanya jalan-jalan ke toko buku. Iya gw tau klo gw jalan kemana2 pasti sendiri, maaf bgt yah klo saya ga pernah bawa 'pacar' atau siapa jalan2, paling klo ga rahman, daus, atau chester.. hehe
Nah, pernah pas minggu-minggu best seller, ada terpampang bukunya karya Ippho Santosa
Kontan gw tertarik ngeliat ini buku, sesuai dengan motto hidup gw "lihatlah buku dari kovernya"
wkwkwk...
"wah berarti lw rasis dong ko?"
Yah engga lah, ngga begitu juga kali -_- Seumur2 gw hidup ini jadi org yg terlalu open-minded kayaknya, jadi ngebeda2in orang melalui penampilan, fisik, dan ras itu masuk dalam kasta terendah dalam hidup gw."Oke jadi maksudnya apa dong?"
Gini, gw emang tertarik ngeliat buku itu rata2 dari kovernya. Karena logika aja deh, klo isi bukunya bisa dibuat sebagus mungkin, masa si penulis gabisa sama sekali bikin sampul atau tampilan kover yang bagus? Bener ga? Menurut gw tampilan cover yg menarik itu perlu, karena itu juga menunjukkan keseriusan kesempurnaan buku itu sendiri bukan? XD
oke lanjut~
Jadi ya gw pengen banget nyoba baca itu buku, dan gw ga ada pilihan lain selain ngebeli buku itu sendiri. Karena di gramed tempat gw buku itu rapih di plastikin semua. Dan gw bukan tipe orang yg berani diem2 buka sampul plastik buku ==''
Namun apalah daya kantong pelajar SMA yang hari-hari niatnya nyimpen duit untuk main game online, gw ngerasa yah... agak males ngeluarin duit buat beli buku -_- Lagian duit gw juga ga cukup sih buat beli.
Alhasil yah gw nyoba untuk ngebujuk ortu buat beliin.
Ortu memang agak pelit sih sama gw, tapi maksud tujuannya baik kok. Gw ga mau dimanja jadi anak yg keinginannya selalu terpenuhi, hehehe... Tapi as far as i concerned, ortu gw itu klo udah yg namanya buat pelajaran, rela ngelakuin apa aja. Mulai dari minta pinjeman kesana sini buat uang buku gw, sampe biaya sekolah. Yah.. emang klo diinget2 sedih juga sih, tapi itulah ortu gw.. Yang pengen anaknya sukses dan melebihi apa yg telah mereka capai :')
Nah, akhirnya ortu gw mau2 aja sih gw ajak ke gramed. Janjinya Minggu malem sekalian jalan2 keluar. Tapi sebenernya ortu juga masih agak ragu gitu.. dan sesampainya di Gramed, eh bener aja.. yang ada ortu gw malah bilang macem2
"ini buku apaan nik? kamu tau isi bukunya? jangan ah ntar ajarannya aneh2, macem2 aja"
Ya begitu sih, diliat dari kover n judulnya.. ==a
Ortu memang bukan kutu buku yang ngerti soal perpustakaan dan toko buku.
Tapi ya gw ga mau kalah dong, ga mungkin ini buku bisa nangkring di pojok best seller tanpa sebab. Jadi pada akhirnya gw menang argumen, dan berhasil membawa pulang buku itu.
And I was right, it was a great book!
Selesai gw baca, gw langsung kasih buku itu ke ortu gw.. dan apa reaksi mereka?
Papah gw langsung beli judul lainnya Ippho Santosa yang 7 Keajaiban Rezeki
wkokwokwokw, dan asli ini buku karya ippho itu bagus banget. Sangat menginspirasi lw, sangat dekat dengan kehidupan real lw, dan tentunya anti garing deh!
nah usut punya usut, coba tengok lagi judul buku nya percepatan rezeki
Liat ga disitu ada tulisan berhadiah Langsung 900,000???
Di dalam buku itu lw ga bakal dapet duit sebanyak itu kok, emangnya ciki tahun 90-an yang klo hoki isinya duit serebu ==a
tapi itu merupakan bentuk persuasif dimana ippho mengatakan begini:
"Berbisnis dengan Allah itu ga akan pernah rugi kok. Belum pernah ada sejarah yang menyatakan orang yg banyak bersedekah itu jatuh miskin, yang ada malah nambah kaya! dan itu bener loh! Jadi Anda gak perlu mikirin Ikhlas apa engga nya deh, jangan jadiin alasan 'gak ikhlas, belum sepenuhnya ikhlas' jadi penghambat sedekah Anda. Inilah uniknya berbisnis dengan Allah, anda gak ikhlas sekalipun Allah tetap ganti, Allah tetap lipatgandakan sedekah Anda!"
Jadi yang gw dapet yaa.. lw beli buku itu, terbujuk buat rajin sedekah, dapet deh balesannya dari Allah. :)
However......
Ini yang hebohnya.
Minggu pagi itu, Papa gw main golf... dan Beliau menang di turnamen itu. And guess what's the prize?
Amplop berisi Rp 900,000.-
Subhanallah....
Seketika itu juga Kita sekeluarga ketawa bareng2 dan Papah nempelin amplop itu di kover belakang buku Percepatan Rezeki. "Nih bukti benernya"memang rezeki itu ga disangka2 kawan. Jangan sekalipun kita nganggep dengan mengeluarkan uang di jalan Allah itu mengurangi harta kita. Dan gw punya banyak sekali pengalaman tentang hal ini, asli bukti 100% Karena begitu uang yang kita berikan untuk sedekah/infak itu kita keluarkan, Saat itu juga Allah membalasnya, mengalirkan keajaiban zat Maha Kuasanya, memulai suatu kemistri dan proses yang Manusia tidak pernah terfikirkan dan duga sebelumnya.
Subhanallah~
Monday, April 15, 2013
I'm back?
well hello there!
Hahaha, truly sorry guys. I promised that I'd post at least once a week, turned out to be a post for the past 3 months!
WTH Nicko where were you!?
okay I doubt that'd been asked to me since nobody cares about this blog though >.>
but still, it's been a really long time since I post things here sooo let's get things start right away!
Final Fantasy XIV
What's the most happy news that i could tell you tonight? YEA! I got the Beta Key~
wooo wooo wooo~~~~ *so excited*
but STOP! it kinda makes me sad as well... because you know.. my laptop can't afford to play it with its spec TAT
Hahaha, truly sorry guys. I promised that I'd post at least once a week, turned out to be a post for the past 3 months!
WTH Nicko where were you!?
okay I doubt that'd been asked to me since nobody cares about this blog though >.>
but still, it's been a really long time since I post things here sooo let's get things start right away!
Final Fantasy XIV
What's the most happy news that i could tell you tonight? YEA! I got the Beta Key~
wooo wooo wooo~~~~ *so excited*
but STOP! it kinda makes me sad as well... because you know.. my laptop can't afford to play it with its spec TAT
it's kinda sad actually.. so i'll have to be more patient as i'm building my very own gaming Personal Computer.
Makrab 2013
As i write things off here, actually i was just arrived from makrab 2013 Information System Bakrie University.
It was kinda awesome I think. Nothing much to be written here as i'd give you some of the pictures later.
yea, later please... it's 0:00 midnight and i'm kinda sleepy and lazy to move things from my phone to the laptop. yea dropbox dropbox, but i'm seriously sleepy right now so next time okay?
Fragment of Memories
Have you ever been thinking what's the point in your life?
Have you ever been thinking what's the point in your life?
As moslems, some of you may have known that our purpose of life is to worship our Creator. However, worshipping Him may comes to different terms. Of course daily pray is included, but the rest are a complex thing to be told and think of.
I don't know, somehow somewhat.. I feel i'm kinda lost here. Everyday in my life i'm just sitting around, alone, people come and then they go, not even turning their back for a time.. and then again I feel lost, being left by people all the time. And I seriously don't know what to do once I'm getting out of the University.
For instance, I really have no purpose of being here. I know that we should remember about our parents, but all my parents want to do is making me happy. I'll be happy if i get to be a pilot. A pilot life may suits me most. Going to airports, briefing, and fly.. taking myself and the others to the sky, enjoying its scenery, what could be better than a life like that. I dislike myself being an officer for days, came to an office, drink coffee, sit in the middle of busy people, imagining that kind of things makes me sick. I'd rather going for a cycle of life where I'm working as a pilot. but well parents, they have their own thinking way.
I'm really bad at communication which is why i never have a gf? that I can't think of anyway to let my parents let me to go to aircraft/pilot school.
As I'm wondering my life, I begin to think.. what if I actually never exist?
It's like.. if I'm gone, will someone miss me? will people know what's left behind about me?
It's like.. if I'm gone, will someone miss me? will people know what's left behind about me?
I think whether my presence exist or not, things will be just the same. I am a nobody, a fragment of memories that'd been trapped in someone else's .. as it disappear in the process of sands of time that they even won't realize about what's left behind.
As i type things off, I begin to worry about someone I.. uhm.. care about?
It feels like my day isn't complete if i haven't seen her or hear her around.. Now that she asked me to let her alone for a while. She doesn't even know if she could get out of it... Does she realize, that actually.. I'm the one who's being left behind again...
As I type hoping my tears won't bursting out.. I tried to smile and think positively, "you can do it!"
I mean it, you can!
After all, i'm just a fragment of memories
SOOOO~
whenever I'm into this kind of embarassing mood, I always try to quickly overcome it by something to do.
I'd love to watch the moon and stars, but sadly it's kinda impossible here... soo a music could do!
I'd love to watch the moon and stars, but sadly it's kinda impossible here... soo a music could do!
here's for the one who stands up by their own! Save your tears, We Are Soldiers!
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Hello fellow readers.Thank you for keeping up with my silly thoughts and reads. I know there's nothing much to offer. Thank you for everyone of you who reads my blog. It means a world to me. For further updates about my life and thoughts (well of course, explicitly), I'll keep them posted on twitter @nicko.hafizam 'Til next time!