To You

Dear You,

Thank you for this past year, and all the joy you have brought me. I will never forget the moments we have shared, and the butterflies in my stomach every time you smiled at me.

Thank you for being a dear friend. Being able to share my life, and my hopes and dreams with you, and being able to catch a glimpse into yours has been priceless. I have always enjoyed your weirdness, the way you would pretend to bully me, and how you would always knowingly use the fact that you are a girl to always have your way.

I always thought that we were a good match for each other based on the way we saw the world, our values, and the things we wanted out of life. I wanted to work on building that future for us, and thanks to you being there for inspiration, I was able to land a job to start working on that future.

But alas,

Thank you for seeing what I could not. While I was - and still am - convinced that we could make this work, you had other things that you wanted, things that taking the easy path of choosing me could not give you.

I know it was selfish and naive of me to have convinced you to keep trying, or to have started this in the first place, but know this: if I had known that it would end this way back then, I would still have done it anyway. Being able to love someone this much is too rare an opportunity to pass up.

But I now realize that if I truly love you, then I must respect your wishes, and if your wishes for the future do not involve me, then I need to respect that too.

You still remain the single most beautiful woman that has ever existed, and remember that anyone who thinks otherwise is not worth your time.

So here we are, a year and half from when we first met. That day was probably the last time we will see each other, and while it breaks my heart, I want it to be among the best moments that we have spent together. I know that you will probably forget all about me, but in the odd chance that you do remember me, please remember me for all the good times. Remember me as someone who loves you, cares about you, was good to you, and would give anything for you. Remember me for that, and leave out all the rest.

Yours, and nobody else's,

Reks B.

Hello from the other side.

Halo halo!!

I've been feeling unwell for days. I think it's been more than 2 weeks that I caught cold. It was started when I attended my uni's graduation, and I came home drenched because of the night rain. And I've been coughing and sneezing all the time, plus sometimes I'm having nausea and fever.

Walao! So mendokusae...

Luckily I'm getting better now because I started to have medicine and vitamin C for addition. Expect me in full fitness in the coming days, yay!

So what's the update?

For starters, I got a new laptop now! My old asus laptop got broken because.. err.. things I've done.. well it wasn't my fault! *tsundere mode*

Now I use a low-profile lenovo laptop, good enough for typing and daily browsing, although the keyboard's somewhat not fulfilling to my preference. I keep mistyped by having a letter less. I don't know, maybe I should really smash it hard to the bottom lol.

How's my thesis doing? well coming home from the graduation really otivates me much to my thesis progress. Nah I'm lying. The reason I started to type again it's because I have no money left that I begin to wonder if I had a better job, I'd be in not such position like this, lol. I don't mind about degree when I can make money, but lately my business doesn't do good.. or maybe.. it's because of my high expenses on yu-gi-oh cards. HAHA XD

So yeah talking about yu-gi-oh, i didnt qualified for the Jakarta's Grand Tournament which is sad. But I have othr choice since I kept getting strucked with bad luck before the final qualifier match, and decide to not particiapate in it. I'll take a shot in the OSD GT next month!